relationship

Well, I was very surprise when I check my email today that the boy I love finally email me. I was so happy. I thought that he never did but he did so I’m extremely happy. I’m so in love with this guy. He’s very cute. It’s just that I’ve been busy and have not check my stuff but he did respond to me and telling me that he wants to chat with me more which is cool. I’m very happy.

But I’m busy even though I do have offers but I’m busy you know. I’m extremely busy now and I know it’s the new year but I’m still busy just doing my work and just you know trying to pull my stuff together. I would rather just be you know going out on date but I find that impossible with my schedule. But it’s ok though I rather be making money. I could really use some money.

I got bills to pay and everything else. I’m sure that we all need to focus on our priority. I’m very tired from all of my work but when I heard about him I’m so excited. I’m kind of bum out too that things might not work out because of distance. I don’t know why but I’m so unlucky that I always run into guys that are just far from me. Oh well better luck next time.

So I once met a few cute guys that I think I could work out my relationship with but oh well they got lost. Life is so weird you know. once you have met someone nice and great and the next second they’re gone. I think that life is kind of weird you know. You never know what you gonna get or what is going to happen.

I just want to meet someone nice and then settle down and is that hard to get but I guess so.  I’ve been very busy to even think about date for the New Year. I know it’s New Year and people are going out but not me. I’m too busy with work. I’ve got so many projects that I’m working on so I got to keep on working you know. Life is so weird when you have to work so hard for you money and then you lose a part of your life and you don’t have time for anything anymore. I guess you just have to do what you need to do. I’m working hard and I will continue to work hard. I’ve had many fans you know. I got to get to work you know. I don’t have that much time to spend digling about boys. Boys are cool but it gets to a point when it’s just too much. I got to focus on better things you know.

So it’s like the end of the month and still no date for me. I’ve been pretty busy just trying to do my work. Sometimes I don’t even have enough sleep let alone go out on a date. Well the New Year is approaching but I’ve been busy working you know. I think that I do have to work hard so that when 2009 comes I have something to work with. I’m just going out when I have finished working.

I think that the New Year is a great time to be with friends and family and although I have had a lot of dates before and guys that I know but none of them is fitting my needs at the moment. There are so many people and no one seem to be just for you. I have yet to get to know more people. I’m still wanting to know more about people. I think that you have to get to know more people so that you can pick who you want to pick.

I’m in no rush as I do not have any interest in having children or anything like that. I think that you have to just kind of let things flow naturally you know. I for once don’t like to think that I have to force myself to do anything. Life is weird with all of the ups and downs. I just value a lot of time alone and doing things that I love to do.

Well well well. The New Year is approaching and I’m still without a date. I don’t know why but I will have some days where I’m just mad at all the effect of this world. I’m so incline to just give things up and not date anymore for awhile. I don’t have much time right now to date. I’m working on a few books and my clothing line that i’m so busy and don’t have the time for it. I’m working hard so it’s a weird thing for me to have to do a lot of dating right now.

I’m so busy and I would hate to waste a day on a guy that won’t work out. I’m kind of mad that a lot of people here are having so much time on their hand. I don’t have any time. I wish I have more time on my hand so that I can do a lot of things. I think that I really need a good boyfriend but I don’t want to waste a lot of time dating a lot of frogs as there are a lot of frogs out there and nothing but frogs. I just wish that I would be able to meet people and do a lot of things around here. I’m just mad that there are so many hours that I don’t have. I’m looking for more hours to go out and to have  fun but oh boy do I not have time. The New Year is a time for celebration but I’m stuck at home working on a lot of things. First thing first you know. You have to get everything together.

I’m now ready to get to know new dates. After many arguments with my family I think it’s time to get a move with my life. I can’t stand my family anymore. I think that it’s time that I move on with my life. I have thought about sticking around but my mama keep on insulting me and annoying me to the very second of Christmas day and I thought that things won’t work out with her so I think that I have to move on with my life. Oh Gosh , it’s not going to be good being in the same house with someone who has so much problems in the head. She’s jealous and then she’s mentally ill. Oh my this is not good.

I used to want to stay and help out with the family but things are not good looking. She won’t quit bothering. I just want some peace and quiet but this lady won’t leave me alone. Ok , please leave me alone. I need to have a good life and rest and not be bother by you mama but oh no. She will keep bothering me. I’m so mad at her and I’m ready to move out. Oh my gosh. Leave me alone mama. How many times do I have to tell a person to leave me alone but she’s so pushy. I don’t like people like that you know.

It was funny as I read Casey Anthony jealously over her daughter Caylee I’m so shock as to how selfish this lady is. Casey is like this little brat that get spoil by her mother and now Caylee took the spotlight. Oh my Gosh, Casey, you’re like an older woman who is a mom now and you’re not a little princess anymore.

Oh my gosh , the family is so dysfunctional. At a jail conference with Casey the mother Cindy was even jealous as her husband call the girl goergeous. Oh my gosh. They are all having genetic jealously problems. The family is a dysfunctional ones. Caylee is a little princess but I can’t believe that Casey is such a selfish person.  We see here that mothers are jealous of their daughter. Oh my god. When will you ever get enough love Cindy or Casey. I think that you will get to a point where you have such a dysfunctional family. They seriously need help I think.

You’re old now and not a little princess like the baby. You have enough love and why can’t the little baby have some love. Oh my god. Where was the father in this case. How come he’s not taking care of the baby.

I’m now still not getting a call from that one guy friend of mine. Oh well, better luck next time. I’m barely trying to make things work out with my life now and I don’t have the time for those guys. I’m nearly tired of guys still. men , men men, they’re no good for anything. Can you ever meet a nice guy in this world? I have had so much problems meeting people. I really want to do something for myself.

Oh well, I’m not giving up my quest to find that one guy though. I really need to date more you know but my work is so much that I don’t  have time to date that much. I think time is getting bad. I don’t have a lot of friends to help me out with work. There is so much work to be done and so little time to write about in my blogs and little time to date. Oh diary , won’t you help me.

I thought that things were going great between me and somebody but I guess I’m wrong. Things aren’t going that great you know. I’m stuck at home doing stuff while my moma is just so bad. She constanstly nag at me and it’s so annoying. Oh my. To all the people who have an understanding mom, you’re so lucky because I’m not. I have the worst family in the world. Not only do I have to hear them yelling at me but I have to try to be responsible for them too. Life doesn’t get any good you know. I wish I can make history soon and move out of this litle rut that I’m in. Life sucks you know.

I’m again today still trying to get to know people. It’s hard isn’t it? Trying to find that perfect one but you know life is so tough when you have to do a lot on your own. I’m so busy that I don’t have the time to do anything but work. I work a lot you know. I work all day and night.

I work very hard and now I have to come a point that I need a rest and just find a great date but that is not happening. Love does hurt you know. I have had a lot of relationship already and I’m pretty much just hurting. I have had a lot of bad relationship and i’m just wanting to quit everything. life is pretty brutal you know and everyone is just fighting for that dollar dollar bill and all the girl and eveyrthing else. Oh mine. I’m so disappointed that some of the people that I’ve dated just didn’t care. Oh well , you don’t care, I don’t care either. Ha ha ha ha. What Can I say? I have had a lot of bad ones. All frogs and no prince. So what should I do? Shave my head and join the nuns. I think that’s what i’ll do. i’m not even try to get along with boys. They’re brutal you know. They are horrible. Oh my God.

I feel so out of love today. I’m a bit sad as the holiday is here and no date for me. Oh well, another Christmas without a date. I don’t care, I’m so busy with work anyway that I can’t do anything else but work. I have so much work stack up that I can’t really hang out or do anything so why bother.

I’m a bit disappointed at the current condition of my life. Everything is a mess. I can’t believe how bad it is. I can’t believe that I’m actually on my own here at my parents house in another state away from all of my friends and family. I’m a bit disappointed. I really need help in my love life. Who doesn’t with all these cheaters and problems nowaday I’m certain that we will have tons of problems. I’m working on my love life though. I have not given up yet. I will try harder. Oh my. I will. I won’t give up. I’m going to work hard. I don’t have anyone right now but i got to concentrate on my work you know. I really need to work hard. I’m so sick and tire of everything around here. People are just not nice anymore. I’m really mad at all of my ex boyfriend for not instilling trust in me. I have had so many cheaters. But no worry these guys will catch a whole bunch of stds as they do it and I won’t have to worry about  a thing. Oh my. What have we here.

I don’t understand why you get so jealous in relationship. I was very jealous when it comes to a lot of my relationships and I broke up with a lot of my dates over it and then after I broke up I realized I was being silly. I don’t think that I have any reasons to break up. I was so silly as to what I was doing.

I broke up all of my relationships over jealously. Jealously is this monster that wins over me. Oh my goodness. I was so terrified how many of my relationship was broken up due to just my jealously. I was totally upset at my dates for like trying to make me like jealous all the time. I wish that jealously is not one of man’s most often felt feelings. I wish that we don’t have jealously or affairs when it comes to dating but dream on I guess as I will always have to face jealously. Oh mine.

Jealously is the eye of the monster. I think that God is a very experimental person and that he just like to sit up there and look down on your dramas. He’s sure a drama fan or its just that he gives you free will, and out of free will you will be a glory or a damp and it’s entirely up to your own choices and no God will partake in that.